First time to the meetup – hey everyone and thanks for visiting!
- Train four times a week (like I paid for!)
- Volunteer once this month (start off slow)
- Apply for one scholarship a day
- Keep up with my google reader (don’t let them pile up)
- Blog twice a week
- Send in one piece a week (I don’t care where, just submit!)
Since this is my first meet up, I don’t have October goals to look back on, but here’s a few off the top of my head:
- Find martial arts gym and go to it yay Boxx Warriors Muay Thai!
- Get up on time (failed… miserably)
- Get info for volunteering
- Work with publications at the high school
- Finish Catch 22
Wow – I haven’t sat down to simply write up what I plan to do in a month in a very long time! I used to do it more often – sometimes daily, actually! Be it self improvement, personal goals or career milestones, I’ve always liked to keep track of where I want to go, how I got there and when I arrived. Yes, I was that yuppie student with checkboxes next to absolutely everything in her planner.
I’m sure I’m not the only one who loves checking things off lists, but I think I’ve overdone it at times. It’s those feelings of invincibility, of accomplishment – the almost tangible load lifting off my shoulders, removing itself from my mental tornado of ideas and reminders.
But I had to stop, for that part of my life, anyway.
I realized I was basing my self-worth too closely on whether those boxes got checked off or not. It was like I was only somebody if I got to the end of my (sometimes impossible) list – if I didn’t, I was scum.
I don’t think I’m alone in this. We’re pressured to produce something, to accomplish something – be it writing a paper or coming up with a bombshell marketing idea – in order to feel good about ourselves. And quite frankly, it’s hard for us to think in any other currency – what other yardstick do we have?
So why I participating in this month’s meet up? Self hatred? Addiction to negativity? Simple love of misery-wallowing?
I guess the only way I can put it is that I can’t beat myself up about not getting temporary goals done, simply because the primary reason I want to work on myself is so I can improve the world around me.
So what other yardstick do we have? The one examining how we helped each other, improved our environment, left the world better than how we found it.
For me, I better myself with the aim of bettering my chances of bettering my surroundings. (Chew on that for a minute!)
“What you leave behind is not what is engraved in stone monuments, but what is woven into the lives of others.” -Pericles